Hello to whoever may reading this,

Finally,I have finish my 3rd semester.How's my final exam?I guess better I dont talk about this matter.My exam has been given me nightmare!This past 3 weeks i feel like my head is going to blow up and it become bigger each day until the last day of exam,I lay down in front of the exam and "phewhh" out loud. My friend was like "alyaa pengsan ke?" with this shock expression and I was like "am I being overreact?".

Well,it's been awhile since stalk my homeslice blog.I just read lola's blog and her latest post is about her boyfriend. As I go through, I realise that her boyfriend is like a clone of my boyfriend. Every little things she said about him is like she talking about my boyfriend.Being emotional over some small matter,raise his voice when he is angry and the most important thing is being a CONTROL FREAK!.

To lola,
Babe aku harap engkau kuatkan semangat and biarla apa dia orang nak cakap pasal engkau.
One day, people will know the truth. Kalaula aku boleh jumpa dia, aku rasa nak sekeh-sekeh dia sebab buat engkau macam tu.Aku faham apa yang engkau rasa sebab boyfriend aku macam dia juga.Tapi aku tak berani nak minta break up dengan dia sebab tak sampai hati.Kalau ikutkan, banyak benda yang aku regret lepas kenal dia.But it's too late.So, sebelum terlambat engkau decide betul-betul whether you still want to be with him or not.Jangan sebab engkau rasa terhutang budi dengan dia, engkau tak nak break off with him sebab nanti ia akan memakan diri sendiri.

About him :

My boyfriend and i met when we were working together.He kept telling me he like.If you tell them, to an eighteen yeral orld girl who never been in a serious relationship before,she will believe you and think that you really fall for her.He was being so nice to me and slowly make me fall for him.So, one day he call me asking me whether I love him or not,and I reply I love him.If I knew it would turn out like this I would've say NO!. I dont feel regret that we are a couple now but i feel regret that you break your promise.The first few month of our relationship,you promise me many things and I believe you.Thinking that you wouldn't break the promise you made.But boys will always be boys.

When we go out,I dont feel happy.You act like nothing and kept asking me "why am I acting like this?".I never do anything fun with you.We never go roller skate together, go to see the light in i-city,having a nice dinner together,go shopping together.All we do is just sit one place and talk about YOU AND YOU!.I know you dont have anyone here but can you listen to my story too.

When we discussing about some matter, you always want to win.You say,tell me how I think but at the end it is you opinion is matter. What I think,you dont care.When I rebel,you angry. Say that I never listen to you bla..bla..bla.Even my parent listen to what i say but you never.

You know that our love is not the same like other couple.Our religion,race,nationality is totally different. When you are in trouble, me and my mom will help you. I never ask you to pay us back,i just want you to treat me well.

When I go out, keep asking what time I'm going to come back and you sound like you dont like that I'm going out. Though I'm going out with my parent, you still dont like.
You cant expect me to sit at home and knitting.I cant be like that.In your country, maybe yes but not here. You cannot disturb my privacy.I also never disturb your privacy.Where you want to go, what you want to do, I allow you as long you dont play me.

I still remember,i just come back from medan and I'm not feeling well. I got jet leg and i'm so tired. When I've arrive LCCT, you angry at me because I late to send you message. Before,I go on a plane I text you, telling you that I'll be arriving LCCT around 11. When I've arrive it's already 11.05 something and I cant straing away switch on my phone bacuse there's some matter I need to settle like immigration check,my luggage and so on.Around 11.30 I message you.You reply me but you sound so sad.I call you and you started to angry.I'm confuse! What is wrong with you?I cant figure it out.When I'm having my dinner,you call me.Keep on talking in angry manner and not trying to understand my condition.*sigh*.My parent start to become annoyed because I cant eat my dinner nicely because i too busy listening to you "complaining"

A few months back,you say something that really hurt me. Before this you promise you will try your best to make it but then after 1 year you break the promise you made.
I guess when we marry,you will break and forget all the promise you made to me.You were crying and angry and say that I never listen to you.At the end, I just agree to what you say.Deep in my heart I really want to cry and yell at you but I control myself because I know you always want to win.When I let you win,you happy.
While in train going back to my hostel, you say that I look older than you, you were handsome bla..bla..bla complementing yourself. After our argument, you say like that.How am I suppose to feel?I'm faking my laugh,smile and agree to all the things you say about yourself.
When I've arrive my hostel, I really cant control myself. So,I let it all out to my room mate.
She almost burst to tears when I tell her about what happen.

I remember when we fight, you tell me that I'm a gold digger.You call me many-many times until your credits finish,then you go to top up and call me again and again.When I pick up you say "alyaa dont put down the phone. I've got a lot of money.I will use all my money to call you".
Not just that, there's one day when you didnt message nor call me. The next day,when I send you this "what are we now?whatever your decision I will agree".Only then you call me.I guess you scared.Actually, my friends tell me to break with you but i dont have the guts to tell you that. I believe you will change but until now nothing's change.Just the same old you.The only thing that change is your promise to me.

Dari kuala lumpur ke batu pahat....
Sungguh indanya cuaca..
Tiba-tiba hujan turun
Membuatkan aku,senah dan mye tak henti-henti nak terkencing*sigh*

Last week me,mye and senah go on raya trip to nina house at batu pahat,johor.
All i can say,I have lotsa lotsa fun going there.
Thanks to nina's nephew and niece yang melayan kita orang..because nina is busy cooking at the kitchen...anak darakan...

*SWITCH MODE*

So,bila dah duduk dengan budak-budak kecik ni,macam-macam soalan yang pop out..soalan pedas,manis,masam,pahit semuanya

seperti

-"bila kakak berhenti hisap susu dalam botol?"
-""kakak nak dengar cerita hantu tak?"
-"apa warna favourite akak?"

Budak-budak pun tak pernah tipu,apa yang keluar dari mulut diaorang semuanya benar-benar belaka.Bila diaorang keluarkan kata-kata pedas,terima jelah...walaupun pahit untuk ditelan dan terasa nak marah tapi sabarkan hati..Hahahaha

Senah pula bawa kereta dengan penuh berhati-hati dah berkhemah walaupun masa nak pergi batu pahat aku tak boleh nak pejam or even blink(poyo!) sebab takut..kih..kih..
Tapi dia memang boleh dipercayai..Terima kasih kepada senah,mye dan viva....
Sepatutnya ambil 4 jam nak sampai batu pahat tapi maklumlah dalam kereta tu semuanya species macam saya...asyik kencing-kencing dekat lima jam macam tu kita orang sampai batu pahat,bila dah masuk ayer hitam ingatkan dah nak sampai rupanya lagi 69 kilometer...
Mak datok....kematu dah punggungku!

Dah sampai batu pahat,nina guide kita orang pergi rumah dia.Ya raabi....nina pula kalau bawa kereta macam nak pergi race.Berdesup dia pergi..Dah,kita orang terpinga-pinga..
Nak masuk rumah dia berbukit-bukit,si senah dah risau...sebab kereta dia sensitive kepada bukit bukau atau gunung ganang...

Dah sampai rumah nina,lauk dah siap hidang atas meja.Perghhhhh,macam heavenbila nina buka tudung saji.Ada cahaya dan binta keluar dari lauk tu,siap ada background music "hallelujah".
Mata kita orangoun dah bersinar-sinar tengok lauk.Tanpa membuang masa kita orangpun makan tanpa memikirkan yang rumah tu rumah orang....dah kenyang baru fikir....

Malam pula,macam biasa berchit chat dengan anak-anak buah dia,abang dia,mak dia sambil ubi rebus dengan sambal.Mye pula makan dengan gula...

Part paling tak boleh bla masa chit chat

Anak buah nina,si danish tanya kat kita orang

Danish:Siapa pandai berdiri guna tangan?
Nina dengan selambanya cakap:Mak tok pandai...

Bahahahahhahaha,gila kelakar nak guling-guling aku bila imaginekan benda tu....
Baju kurung...buat breakdance...TERBAEK!*thumbs up*

Time tidur pula,aku dah kecut nak ke toilet.Usha bawah si senah dengan mye sedah tidur...
Aku ni dahla suka ke toilet...nak ajak anak buah nina temankan..malu pula..
Tiba-tiba.......kedengaran ada orang macam nak buka pintu bilik....hati aku dup..dap..dup..dap
Sambil berkata "sapo pulok ni?".Aku nampak budak kecik rambut medium length,muka ala-ala cina,mata sepet...Rupanya-rupaya kak cha!Haih.....tak semput den...
Diapun panggil "mak su..mak su".Aku pun kata mak su takde,lepas tu aku temanla dia pergi tandas padahal terbaliknya dia yang temankan aku.....Oh,malunya!

Bila nak pergi tidur balik,kak cha punya tempat dah dijajah oleh anak-anak buah nina yang lain,sarah,natrah dengan kakak nina...

Dia pun cekat pinggang sambil berkata "dahlah sempit!" dengan penuh rasa annoyingnya

Akupun kesian.Ajakla tidur sekali.Kak cha kalau tidur bukan main ganas lagi.Kalah bini-biniku gangster.
Nak tergolek aku ke bawah.Aku terpaksa membalancekan badan aku supya tak terhempap atas mye.Dahla tu,si mye pula tak habis-habis sepak kaki aku...entah mimpi apapun aku tak tahu....
Menarik nafas lega bila jam dah pukul 6...Bersorak-sorak dalam hati "yay,sudah pagi.Mentarikan datang".Aku tak pernah rasa gembira macam ni..lagi-lagi bila time nak bangun pergi kelas.Kalau terjaga pukul 6 nak terkencing,rasa macam "alaa...kenapa dah pukul enam??Hishhhh".Hari tu memang sejarahla.


Enough talking,let's proceed to the pictures

Hello...hello

I'm on hiatus for so long.Actually,I didnt have any topic to talk about in my blog.There's nothing "special" things or event happen during my one and a half month holiday.But I was about to express my opinion on the rally happen yesterday.

I wake up around 10 in the morning and all i think about "must turn on the news to see about the illegal rally".As I watch the news,the rally haven't started yet.The police guarded at the "hot spot" with FRU.I was thinking "hurmm,nothing will happen today". Thinking about that make me happy.Why?Because all this rally will scare the tourist and the investors .Not for long .1 o'clock news shows the rally has started and most of the place the rally happen is where most of the tourist are going.

As a malaysian,I'm mad and sad because of all the things thats happening.I love my country and it is a very peaceful and beautiful country.You are free to go he here are and there.But because of this rally people are scared to go out and there was massive traffic jams in several roads.This people on the roads are complaining saying that this rally has disturbed their activities.Let say,I've to visit someone in the hospital and I'm not from KL and I stuck in traffic for more than 4 hours.If private hospital is okay but government hospital,the visiting hour until 5 pm.

To make it worst.this rally news come out in BBC,CNN AND the new york post.I want to know why they held this rally in the city.There are many tourist there.If I'm one of the tourist,I'll be scare to come to malaysia again.If you want to speak up,speak up but dont make any chaos.Do you know how many shops owner loss their income yesterday?Some more its Saturday where most of the people go out to shops.

Let me speak this in bahasa

Yang ramai join perhimpunan haram tu pun student.Aku tak boleh nak cakap apalakan.Tapi korang tu belajar pakai duit siapa?Duit kerajaan juga.Korang tupun jangan-jangan belajar dekat university kerajaan.Haih,entahla.Lepas tu,aku ramai tengok wanita bertudung menyertai perhimpunan ini.Aku yang pakai tudung ni rasa malu juga.Aku faham engkau orang cuba menjadi wanita yang berani tapi ini bukan caranya.Bukan tu je,ada juga emak-emak yang bawa anak-anak dia orang join perhimpunan.Kesian budak-budak tu.Budak 5 tahunpun ada.Budak tu manala tahu apa-apa.Oh come on,janganla heret anak-anak engkau into this rally.

Aku rasa dioarang ni semua belajar sejarah.Penatla orang MELAYU dulu-dulu mempertahankan bangsa dengan negara kita tup..tup abad yang ke-21 ada orang yang mahu mengacau bilaukan negara ni.Aku ni belum lagi cukup umur untuk mengundi and akupun tak suka nak tulis pasal politik sangat.Inipun aku tulis sebab aku rasa macam kurang "enak" ye apabila ramai bangsa aku sendiri dalam perhimpunan tu.Engkau orang tahu ada satu "tempat" ni,diaorang tak ada langsung hak untuk bersuara.Kalau diaorang membantah pemimpin atau kerajaan mereka,diaorang kena tangkap and sampai muflis orang tu dia buat.

Bukan nak cakap apa,aku ni adala juga pergi tengok negara-negara orang,adala melawat sana sini tapi malaysia juga bagus.Nak tahu kenapa?Dekat sini,aku nak makan apapun boleh.Aku tak perlu nak rasa was-was.Kalau nak ke toilet,aku tak payah nak bawak baby wipe sebab ada paip.
Lagipun negara aku ni aman damai.Aku nak ke sana ke mari tak payah nak rasa takut.Ada satu "tempat",orang yang kaya-kaya je boleh masuk shopping mall.Dekat sini,tak kirala apa status engkau,masukla pavi ke,sunway ke,tak ada orang pun kisah.

Bila banyak merantau,aku banyak ambil ikhtibar.Dekat sini,aku boleh belajar senang lenang pakai duit kerajaan,dah habis aku belajar aku bayar balik.Kalau CGPA aku gempak jadila biasiswa.Tapi aku pelik bila Ada juga yang student kerajaan hantar nun sampai luar negara,nak sambung belajar.Tup..tup.. join perhimpunan.Hurmmm...entahla der.Hantar aku kat luar negara lagi bagus.

Ini adalah sekadar pendapat saya sahaja.Kalau ada yang sokong,itu hak anda,yang tak sokong itu hak anda juga.Sekian terima kasih.

Boy: Knock Knock

Girl: Who's there?

Boy: Marry

Girl: Marry who?

Boy: Marry me

You guys might think why I start my blog with this dialogue?The reason for this is because of this song

I've been playing it over and over again until I get stuck up with this song and fantasize about my boyfriend singing it for me .Hahaha,what the hell.It just so sweet.This song makes me smile and my heart start to become flowery flowery(is there such word?).His voice and the guitar sounds perfect.It makes me calm and relax.For me,I like this song compare to bruno mars-marry you song.Well,this is just opinion.

Hurmm,tomorrow is monday and everything will be back to normal.So boredla...I dont like to go back hostel and go to class.I just dont know why.How I wish this whole things can be over FAST!Nothing can excite me to go hostel and class tomorrow.When I go back my hostel,I feel so bored.There's nothing for me to do.No TV,no internet...I feel like living in the dessert accept there got water,food and not much of sand.I miss home when I stay at my hostel.Some people say to me "your house is near and every week go back but still got homesick".Well,to be honest I cant even last there for 1 hour!I've been pushing myself to go there.*sigh*.I know,now is the time for me to live independently but I just cant live with people who cant understand me.I dislike people who cant see other people side and their world only revolve around themselves.It's like they've been like in their own imaginary world where his/her is the only living things there.

My mom knows why I feel like this and been giving all this advice for me to keep on going.I pray god will give me all the strength to keep going despite all the things I've to gone through now.

I'll try to be patient as patient as I can be.I do believe this "what goes comes around".So,if one day you feel like the way I feel now then you know how hurt it can be!

Hello....

How should I describe this week?One word:exhausted!.
It has been a hell of a week.So many assignment,not to say my freaking practicals which need to pass up every friday.Argghhhh!Can the lecturer give me time to "breath".

Thankfully,I've done all the assignments and practicals....and already pass up to my lecturer...Take that,mr kuppu!
I start to sing the "we are the champion" song when I've finish my assignment.I know "wth" right? Even my room mate was looking at me in a weird way...Sorry ayien,I cant help the way I feel!Hehehe

Anyway,this past few days,I have this kind of weird feeling about my boyfriend.I feel like he hiding something from me,I feel like he cheating on me....I dont know.I'm confuse with the feeling I'm having now...Is it real?or is it just my feeling?Hurmmm...Someone used to told me,if you feel like you dont have future with him,dont waste your time....*sigh*



One more thing...some of the people in my class start to "tickle" my nerve when they listening to the music on their phone and turn on the volume as if everybody want to listen.Gosh,can you buy headphone or mp3 player,you disturbing my ears.
I'm not enjoying the song you play,thank you very much...I cant even understand the lyric.
Not only that,when our lecturer shows agar culture picture in the book they cant wait to have it and when they have it,they look at it as if the books belong to them.Oh,come on!And when I have the book,one person say "Eh,I havent get the book yet?".Be patientla,I also just got the book.Just because I'm a very tolerable person,so I gave the book to her.

Kalau ada yang baca benda ni dan ada yang terasa...terus terang aku cakap aku bukan nak gaduh tapi sebabkan blog ini aku yang punya so suka hati aku nak tulis apa ....

To my dear friend lola,

Hey it's been awhile since we met.Aku tahu aku macam dah lupa engkau tapi janganla rasa macam itu.Hurmm,sejak masuk college aku agak sibuk.Aku terpaksa save aku punya credit sebab mr.paing tu.Hahahaha,anyway hari ini aku pun jengah-jengahla blog engkau..
Banyak juga benda engkau update tapikan bila aku scroll kat bawah-bawah aku jadi touching.Engkau ada cerita dekat aku yang engkau nampak bayangan dia dekat MCD bangi and muka engkau terus pucat.Hurmmm,masa time tu aku bertanya sendiri "maybe she still love him".Engkaupun pernah datang pavi dengan dia masa aku kerja,aku tak sangka pula.Aku tak nak buat engkau sedih tapi bila aku tengok video yang engkau buat untuk dia,aku hampir nak mengeluarkan air mata.

Aku percaya,one day engkau boleh dapat lelaki yang lebih baik dari dia and akan setia dengan engkau selama-lamanya.Someone who will appreciate the love you gave to him.You just need to open your heart...

Hello,
It has been a long long time since I last update my blog.Frankly speaking,there are times when I feel like updating my blog but I'm too lazy to update it.I also dont have any topic to talk with you guys.Well,actually I do have but my mind went empty when I click at "new post" button.Then I start mumbling about some stupid things.*wth*

Well,I'm in my semester 2 now.It has been okay but I wish I studying with my form 4&5 classmate.They are the best.We are like brothers and sisters.When one of use feeling down,the whole class feel it too and start asking one another about him/her.Hurmm,that's the best year in my life.

Now,I dont feel as happy as I used to be.I'm in a totally different environment.There are times when I feel like crying and dont have anyone to talk to.That's the time,when I sms my "sisters" and tell them about my problem.They are still the same people I know.Help me when I'm down,giving me advice when I've got problem.How,I wish we were studying together.
You guys make me laugh when I feel down,make me feel alive again when I feel like dying is the best option,make me feel less alone.

My boyfriend always put the blame on me.He always start the argument and make me feel guilty.I cant take it.I do love him but I just cant tell him what really feel.There are things,I kept inside because I'm afraid he will start an argument with it.I dont want to argue with him.I'm too tired for it.Sometimes I think whether he really appreciate me?Does he really love me or he just want someone he can throw his anger at?
When I'm down,he dont really make me comfortable.I feel like I'm just a burden to him.
Asking me question like "do you really want to go out with me? because when we go out you look like normal.Not excited","do you love me?".How am I suppose to answer him when he ask me like that .It has been 1 year but when he ask me "do you love me?" ,I get really frustrated.At the point of time,I rather kill myself and bury myself six feet under.Then ask me "if I die,how you will be?".Huh?!,what kind of question is that?What is he trying to tell me?.I dont want to be cliche and tell him "oh,my darling,I will die together with you",I aint juliet.*sigh*

Can I have a shot of tequila?*sigh*